Hehehehehe, this must be my 10th attempt to start a new blog eh ^^ no wonder I have been reading about blog death and stuff, just too difficult n challenging to continuously update and keep a blog. Let's see la, how long this can last.
It has been raining for the the entire day today. My heart is very cold, I feel very cold and tired. It's 1.09 a.m., I am supposed to be reading for my master's yet my heart and head refuse to go near that pile of material waiting for me. I don't want to read anymore, my brain is dead, my heart is numb. There is something nagging in my heart, I am not at peace....Sigh...why is that so?
I can roughly think of 2 main reasons. First is the fact that I was involved in a 'cat' fight recently, with a figurative cat dragging me into an ugly 'battle' with her, accusing me and making my heart ache. sigh, such an old person, yet trying to find fault with a person half her age. In my heart, I don't hate her but it feels sad that she is so angry with me for such a long period of time without telling me. Finally it all came out. I was shocked; i could not believe that these words are coming out from her mouth. It feels unreal, as if a big, vacuum slap was hurled on my face, and the best part is, I don't think it's real! Huh? is that how she feels about me? strange, I am not even such a person to begin with?! Aiyah, whatever la, we are all entitled to how we feel. If she wanna pursue the matter and make me a sinner and go round gossiping about me, be my guest, i cant be bothered cos the truth will be out sooner or later and the 'fine' reputation that she has can also be my best defense....hehehe...big bad cat indeed ^^
oklar blog, time to sleep, have been talking/ writing to myself for the past 20 mins like a fool. I m sure i will look back on this blog and laugh my lungs out later in life. Life is so funny. It's soooo interesting, I m angry, bitter and upset, yet I am happy, excited and blessed...hmmmm...hehehhee one week of full rest starts tomorrow, all the families will gather for food and more food....waiting to put on more weight ^^
Tata!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
